Oh my gosh. I need to behave!!

I just read over some of my erotica. Now, some are based on personal experiences, some are pure fantasy. (No, I am not saying which is which. lol. I am working on some more tonight!)

Wow. The ones that are actual true stories....WTF? It is no wonder I will forever be single.

I dont think I posted my fourth of july story. or maybe i have. I woke up from a wild night in Central Park the next morning. It was really wild, I can tell you that much. lol.

Should I behave more? What fun is that though? Eh. i don't like to behave. That is not saying I dont know how to behave, mind you. I can if i HAVE to. If given a choice though, I will not. It is just who I am! lol. I am a mover and shaker, I set the standards! Some people (women and for heaven's sake, some guys who thinks they know what is really going on with providers. lol) have tried to tell me to be this, be that, dont do this, dont do that, yadda yadda. Do I tell them what to do? Of course not. It's not my place, its not my life and really....I dont try to control anyone. People are going to do what they are going to do! lol.

I listen, weigh my options. List the pros and cons of such advice...but, I do what I was going to do anyways!! Now, if the advice I was given made sense and would benefit ME without me sacrificing my principles (aka, if i liked the advice. lol) then I used it. If I thought the person had NO CLUE as to what they were talking about (aka, trying to give me advice on a subject they didnt know about. I like to learn from experience or from those who have experienced what I am questioning) then of course, I am going to toss it to the curb.

Now, my thing is this. I dont give advice unless asked. Why do some feel the need to...I dont know, tell me what I can and cant do? Eh. See that.....hear that whooshing sound? That's whatever you told me flying over my head. lol.

I may seem like a hot mess...but trust me. I know what I am doing. Do you?

take care all!

Khym

Aw...do you miss me? LOL

Okay, okay. I promised I was not going to shoot myself in the foot and I shall stick to that promise. After all, I need to keep in mind the world does not revolve around ME 24/7....this is why I need a spaceship and colonize my very own solar system.

I have been...dipping into my past, for lack of a better way of saying what I want to say, for the past two weeks now, taking trips down memory lane.Talking with a very good friend of mine..who happens to be ex husband number 2.

Oh my!! What is this? Khym Danyels has actually been to the alter twice?? Who were the lucky men?

Well....I wouldn't exactly call them lucky, per se. I am not a morning person....and that is all I am saying. LOL.

Now, I find it really strange. Why is it the affair with ex husband number 2 has lasted longer than our marriage? Yes, you read that right. Our affair (I stole him from his second wife) has been going for TEN FRACKING YEARS!! Can you believe it? I couldn't and was SHOCKED and APPALLED, damn near HURT and OFFENDED when I read the card that came with the flowers. Yes this man sent me flowers and a card marking our ten years. (i am being sarcastic. I almost, almost teared up when I read the card. lol. who marks a ten year affair? lol) I didnt even realize it had been ten years. I sent him an E-card back, as he caught me completely off guard and I had no time to plan. lol.

WHO DOES THAT?? Only the crazies I happen to marry, I suppose. lol. I can not get over he has known me for ten years...and we have been through, between us, a total of 6 relationships and two marriages, and we still have the hots for each other. lol. We have cheated on whoever we were messing with at the time just to be together and DID WE CARE? FUCK NO!. lol.

He is my best guy friend, I won't lie. He has always been there for me, I have always been there for him. (More than just sex, get your mind out the gutters!) When the love of my life kicked me to the curb and left me pissed, he came to see me. (he took leave while stationed in Iraq!) Whenever my invinvible ego is slightly bruised, he is there to patch it up and make my head swollen again. (sigh. I do have bit of an ego problem..I have a huge one! lol)

See, here is the thing. I like having male friends...from all walks of life. I especially like older men because MOST of them arent as stupid as the ones my age. (hee hee). I like having male friends with benefits. I dont want to date anyone....just have someone to shoot ideas off (especially if they are in the business world. lol. hello? I love to network and learn things!), someone to hang out with, someone I actually enjoy talking to and most importantly someone NOT STUPID. lol. As long as both parties keep things kewl (friends with benefits) then there is no room for drama. The last time I tried that....sigh. He was delusional anyways. lol. As if I want to date ANYONE. I dont. I like my freedom. Now, this may seem mean, but its true...."can't make a ho into a housewife". In my case, this fits. I prefer being "the other woman" anyways. lol. less stress on me!

I hope to find someone a bit closer to me than the ex husband....hey!! I shall search for that! a friends with benefits type thing!!

I like being single....and I dont want to give that up anytime soon. lol. We shall see...stay tuned!!

I also like guy friends to help me figure out the males species....so confusing at times! I have questions like...why not just admit you are a dumbass and miss me? LOL. Why hide behind the bravado and the games? What is it like to have a penis? Do guys carry cumrags around? What is with the hands down the pants thing? (I am guilty of that. I tried it once and it was just....so comfortable...lol)

I NEED ANSWERS! lol